No, I’m not afraid of the mosquitoes that could carry me off.
No, I’m not scared of the anacondas.
No, I’m not scared of leaving the kids with Rob for two
weeks.
I just couldn’t put my finger on what was scarring me to
my core. Seriously, as the days were
progressing, I was becoming more and more frightened, freaked out and overwhelmed. You would think that I would be getting more
and more excited, but the opposite was happening.
Last night it became clear – I have already been trying
to figure what I was going to “do” when I got back. I’ve been expending all this energy and
mental capacity on trying to figure out what was going to happen when I got
back from Brazil. I haven’t even left
yet! I’m not even ready to GO, much less
worry about what is going to happen when I get back. I realized that I have been trying to deal
with the feelings that my trip is going to invoke internally and what to do
with them when I haven’t even gotten there yet!
How in the world am I supposed to deal with feelings that I haven’t even
FELT yet? No wonder I feel like I’m
frantic! Not sure why I put myself
through all of this – oh, wait, I do know.
I’m a control freak! Everything
for this trip is out of my control and I have no say. Kind of a different feeling for me that I
think I have skipped over the trip part and am already trying to control the
after part. (Yes, it gets tiring being
in my brain!)
Anyway, I am feeling much more relaxed today, so I
thought I would give some updates!
First things first!
I know how we will be getting to Miami!
By plane, on May 6th.
We will be getting to Miami late and will need to be there super early,
so, we are going to stay at the airport. (hmmm, this should be interesting. I’ve seen people sleeping in airports, but
never thought I would be one of them!)
Second – I went to Patient First and got all of my shots
this past Sunday. Yellow Fever – check,
Typhoid – check, Tetanus – check, Hep A – check. The only one that did not hurt was the only
REQUIRED one – Yellow Fever. I also received
the little international traveler certificate thingy to prove I have had all of
these immunizations.
Third – My visa application is now at the Brazilian
consulate in Washington DC. It will take
anywhere from 8 to 10 business days to process.
They are saying it will be shipped to me on May 2. Wow….that’s really close. The document services company said it should
not be a problem because it is “quiet” in Brazil right now. In February it might have been a problem because
of Carnivale, but I should have no problems.
A lot of people have been asking me about donations I
have received. I haven’t wanted to post
anything about it because – I don’t know – just seems – weird – to broadcast
something like that. But, I decided that
I would. I have personally received 2
donations. One from Rob’s co-worker - he
was telling her about my trip and the next day she came back and gave him some
cash to give to me. The other one is
from Ben’s preschool – again, another source Rob told (is there a theme
here?). I was so incredibly touched and
humbled that Ben’s preschool would want to donate to me. They have been the biggest blessing to our
family over the last 5 years. James went
there and then we loved everyone so much that even though it was out of our way
once we moved, we kept Ben there. This
is Ben’s last two months. I’m so touched
that the place that has provided stability and love to two of our children
decided to bless me on this trip. It is
incredible and I am so deeply appreciative that I can’t even find the right
words to express it.
Thank you for taking the time to read my update!
17 Days.....
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